The journey within and the journey without!

Have you ever found yourself in such a mess, in such disharmony and discontent that you want to find a switch to turn off your ever active, ever analysing (and over analysing), ever thinking (and over thinking) mind, you want to step out of your body and breathe or want to fast forward time so that you don't have to go through what is happening?

Well, I am currently experiencing all of this and my ever discontented self keeps on looking for ways to rise above this- ways in which I can restore the harmony or ways of escape.

But then, I don't know at what point of time, I forgot the ways to restore harmony, I've almost forgotten how to keep myself happy (After college life, I tell you!). On my way to here, this point of time in my life, I somehow managed to collect so many regrets on the way, that now they weigh too much for me to carry and I can't look beyond them. Something or the other crops up every other day, leaving me miserable.

TRIPS

(Not intellectual property rights guys, NO!)

I've never been on a single trip during college. Not a single one. It was one thing or the another and I ended up not going. I thoroughly regret missing them now. 

It has been more than 3 years of my stay in Delhi and there is a HUGE part of the city that I haven't seen. (Huge= most of it!). I don't know what has kept me from going out and exploring the city, when I had the time. It must be fun right?

But what if it is not my idea of fun? No, its not a case of the fox calling the grapes sour because she can't have them. Now that I think of it, perhaps going out, exploring the world is not my idea of enjoyment. There are certain places I'm dying to see but yes, I'll admit that I'm rather a laid back person. More than that, I would love to have good company. Traveling alone for leisure, it seems, is just not my thing. I have experimented a bit with that too. I have gone out to eat alone at times, have traveled alone. But yes, I would rather prefer exploring the city with friends! ( Otherwise, how am I going to have pictures of me posing in front of all those monuments and cool places? Duh! )

And for the lazy person that I am, I would rather spend a holiday sleeping more than usual, trying to finish the book I am currently reading, reduce the HUGE movie deficit I have in my life, think and write. This is just perfect. 

I do want to explore the beautiful city I'm living in, explore the country and explore the world too. I would love to do that. The only thing is, everytime I just manage to screw up my chances of doing so. Regretting that over and over again would do me no good either, so I think I would rather, for now, take the path that leads me to the journey within!