Letting you go

( I would call it a side effect of reading "The Fault in our Stars". Just too many emotions! )


I am learning to let go
Trying, trying hard to do so
To put myself at ease
( Oh, whom am I fooling? )
To see if the saying stands true -
Let go of the ones you love,
If they're meant to be they'll return..

I can't let go
After all
It seems...

I'll try to forget
All the little things
That lit me up like nothing else did
The hug that lasted forever
Conveying more than words could
Apology for everything gone wrong
Or maybe I made it all up
It was never so...

The assurance of an honest listener
The keeper of the deepest secrets
The one who never failed to gift me a smile
I have to learn to let go...

Who would have never let me fall
Nor would let me lose myself
In the maze of cruel sentiments
I would always find my way back to sanity..
Who would carry my burden willingly, with ease
I have to learn to let go..

Who has probably laughed at my foolishness
A million times
Might have found me weird
In ways infinite
Still cared to come after me, make up
After every fight..
I have to learn to let go..

I have seen you go before
And I really don't mind
You never really came back
But,
When were you EVER mine?

It is an absurd arrangement of stars
It is sad that our paths did collide
Only to diverge
And become skewed lines.

I would look back in delight
At the happy little infinity
For the chatter never gave way 
To uncomfortable silence
Because you knew,
And knew it all..

I'll see you go again
A late goodbye
Do you feel the loss?
I was always two steps behind!

It will save so much of me
To end this right here
To make way,
To cut out the fear -
Of neglect, imperfection,
Of unrequited care!
Has become mandatory.

I have held on you for long
Or at least - to the image
Can't blame you for the wrong 
But its really time to break the cage
Of hopes, of illusions.

And yes,
I will
Wait no longer
I will let you go
And with it
a part of me,
Too.