Friday, 11 July 2014

The pursuit of happyness :)

This part of my life, this right here?
Its called uncertainty.

Uncertainty of the day when the results will come..
As if the results are always pleasant
( They ceased to be so after school!)
Neither am I sure if I have performed well enough to secure admission in Masters.
( After those disastrous entrance exams, chances are slim)

So what do I have now?
A long list of regrets - of things I could have done differently, in a better way
The list seems to have no end. 
I know I am the one to be blamed.
But the burden of regrets is enough and I can't include the latter one in my baggage too.

Uncertainty.
My mind keeps on coming up with a new backup plan, everyday.

It is as good as walking on a trail on a foggy evening. No guiding light. Little hope. 

This uncertainty is almost maddening!

I'm here, waiting for a day ( waiting, again!) when this uncertainty, the regrets and the blames would be eliminated. It sounds like being at ease - it sounds like being happy.

This kind of day or maybe this feeling is what I look forward to.
This is what I pursue - the pursuit of happyness happiness :) 

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